I don’t know what my deal has been the last few days, but I have been feeling so poopy. Just an overwhelming “ehhhh” that requires me to listen to Bright Eyes and Dashboard Confessional. It could be because of the weather, or that it’s the end of my period. I have no idea. But anyways.

Last night Pete and I were watching the first DVD of the Office, Season 4 (finally), and Jim and Pam were officially together (finally) and sitting on the roof of their office building talking about when they knew that they liked each other.

Pete knows me all too well, because last night in bed, I asked him when he knew that he liked me. For me, there was no specific instance of me knowing when I liked him. It was more of a combination of things that happened before we dated.

There was the time that something completely inappropriate was sent to me, and the next day Pete randomly showed up at my U-Ho apartment to apologize. Elizabeth and I didn’t really know what to do with him after that, so we invited him to sit and watch the rest of Dirty Dancing with us. After Pete left, she was like, “He definitely likes you.”

One time, there was some sort of friend drama going on, and I was sitting in the open trunk of my car talking to Pete about it, and I started crying. Ten minutes later he showed up, and talked with me rationally until I got over my girlness and stopped crying.

He made me real chicken soup when I was sick.

He took off work without me asking him to to help me move.

But it was Dashboard Confessional that I attribute to bringing about the moment where I realized that I was in trouble, and I really liked him.

I woke up on the morning of the release of A Mark, A Mission, A Scar came out to get it at Best Buy before I had to be at work at Hops that morning. Pete was already there, since hosts didn’t always have to go in so early. I had bought him a copy of the CD as well, and was taking it to Hops to surprise him.

The third track came on, “As Lovers Go,” and one of the lines said: “This is easy as lovers go/So don't complicate it by hesitating./And this is wonderful as loving goes,/
This is tailor-made, whats the sense in waiting?”

I thought to myself, “Oh shit. I like Pete. Now I have to tell him!!”

And that was the moment that I knew that I was going to have a very significant relationship. And now we’re married. J