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How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
\nHow to defer to men in solveable predicaments
\nHow to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
\nHow to have that not work and have them run away from you <\/p>\n

How to keep people at arms length and never get too close
\nHow to mistrust the ones who supposedly love the most
\nHow to pretend you’re fine and don’t need help from anyone
\nHow to feel worthless unless you’re serving or helping someone<\/p>\n

I’ll teach you all this in 8 easy steps
\nA course of a lifetime you’ll never forget
\nI’ll show you how to in 8 easy steps
\nI’ll show you how leaderships looks when taught by the best
\nAlanis Morissette- 8 easy steps<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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