"You do not know how much they mean to me, my friends, <\/span>Hurray for colds. <\/p>\n I love TS Eliot, and that quote, and that poem. <\/p>\n Why? Why can’t I help? Why won’t you call me back? <\/p>\n I miss the unquestionability of childhood friendship. I miss Jen. I miss knowing that I have someone who will drop everything and get their ass over here if something bad happens. I miss not having to talk to know what’s going on with the other person. I miss laughing so hard that I cry. I miss the telepathic connection. I miss having someone who will hug me, stroke my hair, let me cry, and tell me that it’s ok and know that they’re not freaked out that I’m upset. I miss acceptance.<\/p>\n I hate being pulled back in and then pushed away again, for no reason. I hate falling for fake friendship. I hate wondering about motives, not being able to truly trust. I hate being made fun of. I hate shit talking, I hate gossip. I hate feeling betrayed. I hate feeling like people should know me, when they really don’t. I hate that some of my girls live so far away.<\/span> "You do not know how much they mean to me, my friends,And how, how rare and strange it is, to findIn a life composed so much, so much of odds and ends,[For indeed I do not love it . . . you knew? you are not blind!How keen you are!]To<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-537","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1DIlZ-8F","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/537","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=537"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/537\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=537"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=537"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=537"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
And how, how rare and strange it is, to find
In a life composed so much, so much of odds and ends,
[For indeed I do not love it . . . you knew? you are not blind!
How keen you are!]
To find a friend who has these qualities,
Who has, and gives
Those qualities upon which friendship lives.
How much it means that I say this to you–
Without these friendships–life, what cauchemar!" -Portrait of a Lady, TS Eliot<\/p>\n
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I love history that makes friends like family. I love the instant connection I get when I talk to someone who really knows <\/em>me and I don’t have to explain anything. I love family that become friends. I love preplanning girls’ nights and future girls’ trips.
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