and I'm hanging out alone. Peter is at work, being that it's a Friday night. I usually like being alone, but I haven't seen him much this week. Our schedules are opposite, and while the hours are better than when he was managing, it still sucks. <\/p>\n

Mostly though, it's because of something that happened in one of the Knot communities that hit a little too close to home. One of the girls on the Central Florida Knot board was in a car accident a week ago today. She was ok, but her husband was not. After 6 days, she decided that it was best if she took him off life support. They had only been married for six months. <\/p>\n

I can't even imagine having to make a decision like that. And I can't stop thinking about it, so it means that I have to write it out.  <\/p>\n

I am scared to death of losing Pete. Always have been. It's what caused a little bit of the anxiety that I used to have. So every morning, I make sure I kiss him goodbye, even though he's still sleeping, just in case something happens to one of us during the day. I need to know that if something happens I said that goodbye and I loved him. <\/p>\n

We always say, "I can't live without [insert name of person here]," and now this poor girl is living out my worst nightmare. Because she has to live without him. It makes me nauseous just thinking about it. <\/p>\n

Needless to say, Pete and I are going to take care of the whole living will thing. I want to do what he wants, not make that decision in the midst of all the emotion. And I know that if something happened to me, I'd want him to move on with his life, not have me in a vegetative state somewhere. <\/p>\n

In less depressing news, the first UCF game is this weekend. Tailgating galore. I love my parking pass. I don't think I'll ever be as hardcore as Peter and his crew, with the 7am start time. It's just to early. <\/p>\n

And how about that Vice President nomination today. No one was expecting a female governor from Alaska. This is going to be a pretty interesting election, and I think that I should start paying attention to the speeches and stuff. <\/p>\n

Also, work might kick me out soon. They opened up my position for a full time hire, and even though I applied, I might not get it. We'll see how it goes. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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