so we were staying at your house and i don’t know why. i don’t remember much about the dream except that your grandfather, whom i have never met was there, and i can’t get him out of my head. he was an unhappy, formidable looking man. you said something to me, and i keep trying to make the words replay in my head but they refuse too, all i know is that they made me angry and we stopped talking. i remember packing up my stuff to leave, because i didn’t want to be around you anymore. you didn’t know i was angry, even though you probably should have, because i remember thinking that. you tried to give me a pat on the back, and i pushed your arm away and said “don’t touch me ever again. keep your hands off of me.” you looked hurt, but you left the room anyway, and i momentarily felt free. and then suddenly we were in a different room, like a room for a formal event, except everyone was dressed normally. i kept trying to find peter but i was surrounded by guys in his fraternity and they were all wearing jerseys and i couldn’t tell which one was him. i was still mad at you, but i couldn’t remember why anymore.all i knew was that i was blatantly ignoring you. and then i was pulled away to help load hospital supplies into an ambulance. and then the phone rang and i woke up in my bed next to tater. i wish you would stop haunting me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

so we were staying at your house and i don’t know why. i don’t remember much about the dream except that your grandfather, whom i have never met was there, and i can’t get him out of my head. he was an unhappy, formidable looking man. you said something to<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[62],"class_list":["post-137","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p1DIlZ-2d","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/137","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=137"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/137\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=137"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=137"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lindsaykeegan.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=137"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}