and I'm hanging out alone. Peter is at work, being that it's a Friday night. I usually like being alone, but I haven't seen him much this week. Our schedules are opposite, and while the hours are better than when he was managing, it still sucks.

Mostly though, it's because of something that happened in one of the Knot communities that hit a little too close to home. One of the girls on the Central Florida Knot board was in a car accident a week ago today. She was ok, but her husband was not. After 6 days, she decided that it was best if she took him off life support. They had only been married for six months.

I can't even imagine having to make a decision like that. And I can't stop thinking about it, so it means that I have to write it out. 

I am scared to death of losing Pete. Always have been. It's what caused a little bit of the anxiety that I used to have. So every morning, I make sure I kiss him goodbye, even though he's still sleeping, just in case something happens to one of us during the day. I need to know that if something happens I said that goodbye and I loved him.

We always say, "I can't live without [insert name of person here]," and now this poor girl is living out my worst nightmare. Because she has to live without him. It makes me nauseous just thinking about it.

Needless to say, Pete and I are going to take care of the whole living will thing. I want to do what he wants, not make that decision in the midst of all the emotion. And I know that if something happened to me, I'd want him to move on with his life, not have me in a vegetative state somewhere.

In less depressing news, the first UCF game is this weekend. Tailgating galore. I love my parking pass. I don't think I'll ever be as hardcore as Peter and his crew, with the 7am start time. It's just to early.

And how about that Vice President nomination today. No one was expecting a female governor from Alaska. This is going to be a pretty interesting election, and I think that I should start paying attention to the speeches and stuff.

Also, work might kick me out soon. They opened up my position for a full time hire, and even though I applied, I might not get it. We'll see how it goes.