i look around and we’re all growing up and damn its weird.

i’m at work now, trying to get the motivation to read some plath what not. i have somethings i have to read, some supplemental readings, and very tired eyes from looking at this work computer all the time. someday . . . i will not have class and work at the same time. someday, i will get more than 5-6 hours of sleep a night. someday things won’t be so crazy. i’m just trying to keep up.

i took flowers to papa’s grave and that was a weird experience. because there was no gravestone. there were two bare patches of dirt so i had to go into the office and say, “hi…we just buried my grandfather here like a month ago, and i can’t find him. can you help me?” it was weird. so i laid the flowers on the patch of dirt and sorta looked at it. i know he’s not there. the whole thing is still weird, and i can’t believe he won’t be there for thanksgiving.

party at marissa’s last night was super fun. i haven’t seen everyone since school started, since my lack of monetary funds has prevented me from joining my meal plan crew for lunch, and it was good times. i tried to drink a lot, but i only got through a beer and a half, which is actually a record for me.

so, aside from being consistently tired, things are good. i’m skipping tennis practice tomorrow to go get my tires fixed and have lunch with my lil sis (umm..my real one ha)and then its work as usual. monday is a paidddd holiday! hurray for not having to work and getting paid for it anyway!