if i just sit here and lose my eyes and type maybe the keys going will gie me a little motivation. my eyes are tired. they cried today, and it was a tough day at the hospital. papa is a lecturer. and he loves to lecture me. but sometimes he doens’t know what he’s saying, and even though i know that its hard anyway.and they stuck me down in radiation for an hour and a half without telling me that they took him back up to his room. when i went back up he was like, where were you, but kinda demanding, and i started to cry. i haven’t yet since i’ve been here and its a lot more stressful being involved in all this than i thought. oh vey. but it was so good to call jen and have her answer today. just something that feels normal on this emergency trip here.