so i’m in a nonfiction class and all night i’ve been sitting here, reading and responding and critiquing other peoples stuff. everyone has a story. everyone has a sob story, and they’re all sad, and tragic.

i am the most dramatic, pessimistic person i know, and out of 30 people, so far, i think my story is not a blase story about life, or your typical teenage troubles. i could defitinely make one up, because i have plenty. but i dunno. there’s something so cliche about the happy girl that becomes depressed out of no where and doesn’t tell anyone about it, that i doubt i would write that story. i’ve lived the pain. i’m over the pain and the nonchalant view of life, and its time to write happy things, about concerts that i loved and where i felt invincible.

but anyways. all these stories and how do you tell them? what is a life? if i wrote down everything i could remember, who would really care. my kids or their kids, because its their history? my friends, because they’re a part of it? how are you supposed to put a moment in an essay, anyway. it’s next to impossible.

someday, you’ll be walking through barnes and noble, and there my book will be on the best of nonfiction. i promise. i have a lot of work to do but it’ll be there. and you’ll think, hey, i knew her once.

so while all this is going on this matchbox twenty song has been running through my head, so i’ll post it because i can’t get it out of my head. it seems relevant, i guess, since it came to mind once i thought, “man, everyone has a sob story to tell.” c’est la vie.

Everywhere someone’s getting over
Everybody cries and sometimes
You can still lose even if you really try
Talking ’bout the dream like the dream is over
Talk like that won’t get you nowhere
Everybody’s trusting in the heart
Like the heart don’t lie
And that’s all that I need, yeah
Someone else to cling to
Someone I can lean on until
I don’t need to
Just stay all through the night
And in the morning let me down
Cuz that’s all that I need, right now
Everywhere someone’s getting over
Everybody’s lied to someone
People still use other people
With a crooked smile
And all around the world
There’s a sinking feeling
Out there right now
Someone’s really
Down on themselves
And don’t know why
That’s all that I need, yeah
Someone else to cling to
Someone I can lean on until
I don’t need to
Just stay all through the night
And in the morning let me down
Cuz that’s all that I need right now
Life ain’t no
Beauty show
We don’t know where tomorrow ends
And when we’re sad
It’s kind of a drag
Just stay all through the night
And in the morning let me down
Cuz that’s all that I need, yeah
That’s all that I need
That’s all that I need right now
Right now